Deep sad

Today I was really upset . There're someone finally able to influenced my happiness . Just because he never shown up today for lunch. Last few day I had a little misunderstand for him. We supposedly have a date on Sunday . I'm planning to self made sushi with him. But unfortunately, I can't managed to contact him for Thursday and Friday. I really angry and sad to maximum because I thought he was ignoring me . And I'm wondering what've I done wrong . It sucks when you're ignored by the one person who's attention means the world to you. Then Sunday night I received his SMS , he explained and said that his phone is left with his friend .
In that moment I'm actually inside the cinema. And I just felt so glad and happy because of his text . How can a person easily change my mood to up and down. I was real happy to get his text . And being with him is just so happy and comfortable. We swam, cook, talk , drink.......
Then last night I went for drink at night. Seriously I was a bit drunk cause one of my friend that I thought can told him everything without hiding of myself , he is on crush with me. And he seems good and I think I feel in love with all the way how he cared me . I am real confuse when he seems like a little confessing . But , never go into a relationship with the wrong intentions. Make sure you can truly see yourself loving him before you enter a relationship. This is what I told myself . Because I choose to not answer anything.

Today I feel really sad because that moment I thought we could really have lunch together . But unfortunately , you're just too busy meeting and I won't blame you because you and I know that we eventually will come out if both of us are free . I understand .

Just stop think too much. I'll be alright .