Sunday, September 22, 2013

你爱过多少个人?

看了一个短片, 突然觉得很起劲。
爱未必在一起过
但是爱却让人成长了很多
当中或许有开心的也有伤心的 
但是 那么一点一点确实造成了现在的我们


我曾经爱过4个人
而他们的名字就是。。。。。。。

第一个叫 WHO 
他是我中学就认识的也是跟我很好的一个男生,他就好像呵护着我爱护我,记得第一次和他说话感觉特别紧张,连他足球衣服的号码也要配我篮球衣的号码,他就好像我的大哥哥,无时无刻给予关怀安慰,也记得我疯狂的折了很多的星星放在罐子送给他,我们会时常通电话,谈很多长大的事情,他很风趣,时常让我很快乐的度过平凡的日子。最后问题他还是和他前女友和好,我只能默默的祝福。之后他毕业了,我们没有一起过。

第二个叫 WHAT
他是我的旧朋友,透过我的朋友而认识的一个普通朋友,但他不仅是普通朋友,因为我们无话不谈,在我18岁就认识了他,之后到现在还保持这很好的关系和联络,认识他的原因是因为他喜欢我的朋友,却打来给我请教。我们也见证大家的成长也看着彼此各恋爱的经历。我看着他追其他女子,他也看着我跟别的男子在一起,我们似乎很多都很相似的地方,唯一不和的是时间, 因为我们两个并没有同个时候单身着,他也没有正式追求过我,或许我们的爱不足以对方离开彼此的恋人,就这样,我们还是好朋友。

第三个叫 WHEN
而那个叫when 的却是跟我交往最久的人,当时的我们不是只拍拖一次而是隔了很多年后再回一起,他给予我很多的第一次的回忆,年轻有活力的我们,那时候的回忆是不能复制也不能取代的,因为我们只能经历那么一次的那个岁月,整整超过一年加两年的回忆,从一颗情人节礼物的篮球开始了,当中吵架,幸福,样样都有,当时就是这些回忆让我跟成熟了,更加学会待人处事。但时候爱让人变的什么都不重要,世界好像只有他,但我学会了相思,分隔两地的我们,要学会互相谅解,在澳洲的他,让我更加珍惜。但是那时候的我们很天真,未来的路还很远,结果还是以很悲哀很伤心的离开了大家。


第四个叫 WHY
我爱那个WHY 其实是很短暂的,他是最独特的,在我难过的时候他总是让我开心起来,或许culture 的关系,他好像我梦里般的王子出现了,第一个男的煮我爱吃的,当然他烹饪超厉害的,他总是很甜蜜的对我,我们不曾吵架过,他总是知道我想什么,记得在新加坡,有人来搭讪,他刚好去厕所,回来后,我就告诉了说刚才那两个人过来跟我拿号码,结果但我们吃完后,他就去跟那两个人说,“记得她是我的女朋友”, 那时候我真的很开心,他去meetin跟, 我就和新加坡朋友游玩,他也不会忘了问我在哪里吃了吗累不累之类的,贴心的他让我无法被他迷上了。可是culture 毕竟是 culture, 结果我们没有了,但是他说我是她一辈子见过最乖巧可爱的女孩。而我却告诉了他说你是我见过最贴心细心的男人。之后他回去了英国3个月,得知他有了女朋友,我们还是朋友。



第五个他的名字叫Rodney。
是我现任的男朋友不仅是这样也是我最后要爱的人。他却包含了who,what,when
 和 why 有的东西。他比我稍微大了一些,但是我相信他给我的爱不会比任何人少。
他是个很典型的稳重男人,爱闹也很正经。我爱他是因为被他的真诚给击败了。他就是那种让人感觉很实在的感觉。他不浪漫,但是他会无时无刻的逗你。他也是唯一一个让我看见未来的人。他让我觉得要好好经营这段能开花的感情。我发誓,我绝对不是玩玩的。
下个月就是我们一年纪念日。期待我们能一起步行礼堂的那天,幸福美满的过下辈子。







love


Friday, September 20, 2013

A day in NOSH

20/9/2013

Say hello to the lovely fly day - Friday . Everyone favorite day, exhausted in the morning after work or study but gonna play hard in the night . 

Is been quite a long time I didn't really doll up for myself , everyday attend for college classes and I've no intention to do any make up yet my skin is getting serious due to the weather and there's few pimples on my face :( 

Today I've try out the new outfit which I had bought this since last year, but this is the first time I wear it out . With a little curl on my hair , similar to Korea style ? Hahahaha 



Well, tonight is soul sista date . My beloved sista is gonna marry soon therefore we gonna discuss her hen night and the marry day activities .

My beloved Mun Mun 

Soul sista - Mun Mun , penny , Bb

The smoked salmon salad .

The favorite roasted pekcek. The name of the food actually catch my eye in the menu. What?! Pekcek... Haha but a bit spicy .

Olio spaghetti 


The drink called - passion shy . Quite sour but still nice to drink .


We had a lot of talking yet full of fun and laugh . And I didn't know marry thing actually uneasy . Everything must be well planned . Therefore , before getting marry, there are many preparations , ideas, restaurants , agreement and so on to discuss zzz zzz


Saturday, March 2, 2013

monthsary with my dear

As usual, girls love to remember every single memorable date or specific event in their journey of love story. Every 2nd day of the Month is the monthsary for both of us. Time passes superb fast.

Love is a passion; a dream for the beloved and no words can really describe the true feeling one administers for his or her beloved. Love phrases by famous personality"s right describe or speak out the heart of millions of lover"s worldwide.

Early morning after wake up,  we head to a restaurant in puchong . Craving for food badly.









Saturday, November 24, 2012

relationship

I never thought of when we first met , you became so important in my life now .


Wednesday, October 10, 2012

After a year

Just so randomly When I'm using my friend's iPad, I Taip my name at google search. Just Taip "pennyannabella" , never know that there're so many post related about me and many images can be found . Wow . I saw my blogspot link. Is been quite a damn long time I never really upload a proper post. I guess I'm just getting lazy or too many untold sadness to write .

People aren't always going to be there for you, that's why you need to learn to handle things on your own.


I had graduate since last year 2011 oct . And time flies , cause I've been stop study for a year. Finally, I had registers as a officially student in BA(Hons) in Marketing at Inti Subang college .

I've fought for a year. I recall back my past , I seems did nothing . I'm a failure . But no matter how, I'll never stop my feet , ill only keep moving on.

And I'm facing so complicated in relationship.
Why is it so hard to find the one you love and he will use his life to love you back?
Just a simple I love you and I wish to listen I love you too . That's all . Is that so difficult ?


I don't regret meeting you, the one thing i do regret is that we never became a couple.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Melaka trip 11/8/2012-12/8/2012

The soul sista trip that we planned few month ago. This time only involve 5 girls.

Penny, bb , mun , wei , Sy


We supposedly depart from KL 12pm, end up everyone can't wake up on time.
Finally we arrived in Melaka around 4.30pm plus, before that we head to Ayer Keroh toll rest place to take away some food . We tried out the A&W and some sweet corn waffles . Hahahaha

Then we Check in the phelia resort in Melaka pavilion villa . The place is just so nice . everything talk about environment and the special theme Go Green. We gonna spent our day here.

So we quickly change and of course bikini girls are ready. We went for a short swimming . And have a lots of greats fun .

Of course we head to Jonker street at night for our dinner . We prepare rm250 for the food . And yet we can finish about rm200 just for the food at Jonker walk. Can imagine how crazy are us. The food are cheap and delicious . We try out many food like something with Durian, keow teow, asam laksa, fish , sushi, drinks ......

Everyone so full of course we had plan for next round . Having a drinking session at our room . We bring a Martel Whisky from kl .

We head to 7-11 to buy some mixer and ices and some maggie . Hahaha for sure we will hungry again.


Then the party start since 12 plus , non stop drink as we have good drinker there (BB) , at first we playing truth or dare, end up we play some games with the cards as well. Everyone start down and down . Punishment this and that.
We finish drink at 5am. Omg
And Tmr everyone hangover .

Is so good to have pillows talk with the girls that you trust the most .

Next day we try to the chicken rice at Jonker walk again and then buy some melaka food then we head back to KL. although the trip is short perhaps we will lookin forward more trip about our soul sista .


Xxx

Catch up for more post (:
This month are great month !!

My babe Yap Kah Hong birthday Blast

We celebrate her birthday at Friday at the Scott garden idarx . We having a lot of great fun . But Bb gg quite early . Luckily her bf take care her all the while . I'm so glad that she found her love and also be happy all the moment. Sincerely wish her happy birthday and soul sister forever .

Xxx

Sunday, August 19, 2012

爱的发声练习



爱 是 什 么?




昨晚我和家人上了巴士,要前往热浪岛,事前我就用iphone下载了戏,,《爱的发声练习》。

我认为,许多人都这么想得,作为第一次导戏的李鼎,拍戏的剪辑和给人的感觉上还是有点点稚嫩的,
但是,恰恰的他把想要表达的感情和思想,弄得很清晰,但又朦胧,看不进去,就看不懂,但是看进去了,就会发现,真的很明确。
就像他说的——既然心灵和肉体都能结合了,为什么我们还是不能在一起?
  
刚开始,我看了之后,感觉很朦胧,不清楚那个大S演的小猫到底在这三个男人的身边分别扮演的是什么样的角色,
这三个男人又到底在她心里是什么角色?
爱情,到底是什么?

我想,导演他是故意的吧,编剧是故意的吧,他想给人的就是种朦胧的感觉,好像海市蜃楼,就像爱情,就像小猫一直问的那样。
爱,到底是什么?
看完之后,心里很压抑,为了现实,为了在生活,爱情,利益,肉欲中生存的人们,感到惋惜。
其实,我们每个人都是这样的。我惋惜,很多人的人生。
"你会不会这样?
有些地方,你一辈子再也不想回去
有些人,再也不想遇到
有些电话,从此就想delete掉
但,没有办法,对不对?
就好像有些事,你以为你早已忘记,没想到,却影响你一辈子。"



影片的开头,就让人知道了,小猫是个从小被遗弃的孩子,妈妈遗弃了她,然后妈妈重组家庭之后把小猫接了回来。
但是,小猫的继父对小猫和妹妹不伦的偷窥让小猫无法忍受,而妈妈又为了家庭懦弱的只能让小猫承受,小猫的妹妹因为家庭的压力,像是一个不会说话的哑巴一样只肯写字条,连哭的时候都是只有委屈到扭曲的表情没有声音。
这样的家庭让小猫感受不到温暖。
所以有了,在DO RE MI三个部分中,DO的部分遇到阿良时的那些小小的片段。
Do,
   “长大以后我想要那个”小猫指着远处的房子。
   “房子吗?”
   “那个窗户裡面,他们小小的幸福 ”
   “那,我可以当第一号的家人吗?”

小猫和阿良都笑了。


可是,小猫为什么没有和阿良在一起呢?

小猫问阿良:“甚麽是爱?”
“我觉得,爱一个人,是一直付出,不断的付出才对 ”

他是爱小猫的,可是,通过小猫后几次对阿良抚摸她的幻想和亲热的场景,可以表现出,阿良其实是对女性有障碍的,否则也不会有后面阿良和学弟的同性情节。
可是阿良心里,真的一直都是小猫。

Re,
   “那我问你,甚麽是爱?”
   “爱就是爱,没有甚麽答案的 ”
  
   “我不知道这是不是爱 ”
   “身体会告诉你 ”

Re的部分,小猫遇到了小古,小古解释的爱情,就是上面的对话。
小猫没有和第一次见面的男人怎样,却和小古发生了关系。说明她并不完全是为了钱。她是喜欢小古的(身体会告诉你,什么是爱?)是的,身体往往比内心诚实。
小古的成熟气质很吸引小猫,小猫在这三个部分里最爱的人也是小古,但是小猫是善良的女孩子,不能逼迫他离婚,也不能逼迫他给她一个孩子。

“也许我不配拥有幸福,可是,我有能力养一个小孩 ”
小猫对小古说过那么多次,“给我一个孩子。”在这三个人里面她最想要的就是小古的孩子。她其实也是真的爱小古的,但是小猫不是自私的人,是善良的。她没有逼迫小古离婚,但是,有一份爱,却狠狠的纠缠着两个人的心。
小猫和小古分手后,小猫穿着晚礼服躺在马路中间过了一夜
“天亮了,没有做梦,也没有死掉 ”。
小猫穿着漂亮的礼服,那么美,那么凄凉。

MI
“我聼人家说,当你快要看见天堂的时候,撒旦会一直来找你
   因为撒旦知道,你已经要到上帝那国去了
   所以他会拼命地讨好你,试探你,甚至折磨你”
  
   “也许我不配拥有幸福,可是,我有能力养一个小孩 ”
  

   “我们有病,我们要面对 ”

  
小猫说,我们要面对,可是,她还是没能在小古身边,因为这些爱情,不属于她们却又纠缠着他们。

MI的部分小猫遇到那个残障的阳光大男生。他喜欢小猫,爱小猫。
但是小猫觉得自己配不上他,选择了搬家,还是和阿良,学弟,妹妹组成一个家庭。
阿良当上了小猫的第一号家人,学弟也和阿良生活在一起,妹妹也不用承担家庭的难堪。
也许这就是最好的结局。
当小猫得知自己怀孕的时候,问sunshine,为什么你不问孩子是谁的。Sunshine笑笑说,我可以当孩子的爸爸吗?
那个瞬间,我觉得那个残障的大男孩,很男人。

最后,咖啡厅里,小古在纸巾上写,边写边哭,他写。
“我觉得你该有个孩子,你该有个家,因为你就该是小猫。”

“你搬过家吗?
   你搬家得时候 甚麽东西是你丢也丢不掉
   却是大家眼中的垃圾呢?
   我不知道我跟阿良 以及这些东西 可以在一起多久
   但这一刻 我们彼此的诚实 会在心裡一辈子”

搬家的三个月后 sunshine给小猫发了一个简讯 只有八个字。
“他们都爱你 我也是 ”

“我一直问你 甚麽是爱
   可能 爱真的像你所说 没有答案
   而是一次次受伤之后 依然支撑着彼此 发出声音的 力量 ”

其实这个世界上,满满的,都是爱。只是,我们不能付出,不能支撑彼此,一直发出声音。没有那样承受一次次受伤,还可以坚持的力量。



其实往往就是这样,爱真的没有答案
我之前和一个朋友聊的很开
他有了孩子和老婆
但是和老婆其实已经分开了
但是因为孩子 却住在一个屋檐
他却爱上了一个女生

当他告诉我,我傻掉
那个女生并没有要求什么
只说了 爱你 是我自己的事
我只是坦白的面对自己




Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Deep sad

Today I was really upset . There're someone finally able to influenced my happiness . Just because he never shown up today for lunch. Last few day I had a little misunderstand for him. We supposedly have a date on Sunday . I'm planning to self made sushi with him. But unfortunately, I can't managed to contact him for Thursday and Friday. I really angry and sad to maximum because I thought he was ignoring me . And I'm wondering what've I done wrong . It sucks when you're ignored by the one person who's attention means the world to you. Then Sunday night I received his SMS , he explained and said that his phone is left with his friend .
In that moment I'm actually inside the cinema. And I just felt so glad and happy because of his text . How can a person easily change my mood to up and down. I was real happy to get his text . And being with him is just so happy and comfortable. We swam, cook, talk , drink.......
Then last night I went for drink at night. Seriously I was a bit drunk cause one of my friend that I thought can told him everything without hiding of myself , he is on crush with me. And he seems good and I think I feel in love with all the way how he cared me . I am real confuse when he seems like a little confessing . But , never go into a relationship with the wrong intentions. Make sure you can truly see yourself loving him before you enter a relationship. This is what I told myself . Because I choose to not answer anything.

Today I feel really sad because that moment I thought we could really have lunch together . But unfortunately , you're just too busy meeting and I won't blame you because you and I know that we eventually will come out if both of us are free . I understand .

Just stop think too much. I'll be alright .

Sunday, July 29, 2012

A good Saturday with J

As what we promised, today J and I have a date for doing gym because I'm desperate to build my body shape and J was so helpful and kind willing to spent time with me . So I head to J apartment , unexpected J's uncle was really so friendly and we had lunch first before we go for gym . After settle everything , the first station of course is gym room. J's apartment facilities are great. I've really working hard inside the gym. J become my personal instructor. Due to the limit of time, I only focus on my tummy part . LOL. I feel so sad because i'm really fat and chubby. How can those girl eat so many yet they can be described as skeleton. After Gym, the happiest part is go for swimming . With the weather is just fine. Not that sunny. And the swimming pool quite big. And best part is I need to rush back to work. As usual I need to work at 6.30pm. So I've no choice , J fetch me to my working place and congrats I'm late . Hahahahahahhaah . But never mind. My leader was kind enough because I've never late before this.

And sometimes shit happen in life . I bring everything even my working uniform, tower, showering set bla bla bla, I forget to bring my high heel for work. I've no choice , wearing my slippers walk into my working place. Then thanks for J going back my house and take my heel. Really trouble J a lot .
After finish work, J manage to give me a little surprise . J deliver a dinner box for me. And the dinner box is awesome and delicious. I'm really glad to have J in my life now.

While I'm working , J asked me, wanna go for a ride ? J is crazy with bike KAWASAKI. J mention that let me try and won't speed. I was like hmmm okay then . This is the first time ever I try on bike .

And lessons learnt, don't trust anyone so easily . Hahahahaha . End up, J ride the Kawasaki fetch me and with a bike friend as well, and he totally look cool cause afternoon I met him once and I knew he is a doctor . But during night time, he is totally different character. Sound like dr jekyll and mr hyde.


J help me to put on everything, and ready for a ride .
And two KAWASAKI end up speeding so so so FAST at the highway. I really frightening and scare. Could scream but I enjoy the excitement . Lessons learnt again, Everything must try, don't limit yourself .

Guess where we heading . ???

Lol

Lol


SEREMBAN.

took around 45 minute to reach there from bangsar .

My hand and leg are shaking . But I tend to be okay. Deep down I am so scare . But as what J said . Must trust J. Yeah, I trust J. Safety reach seremban and chill at there awhile.

Seremban actually my dad's hometown, but it's been a long time I've no chance to visit there . As my Grandma also stay in KL already.


Long journey and I'm so excited and happy of spending time with J.

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Officially 21st year old .

Hi everyone. I'm here to sincere sorry for missing a couple months. Well, guess who is in the town? Yeah I'm back. No more laziness to update blog again. I promised .

Time flies so quick . I just can't accept that I'm officially 21 years old . I'm entering the categories of adult. Going to the casino without checking is awesome. LOL


I had a great party and dinner for my birthday with lots of friend and family . Of course, I made three wishes for this year. The first one of course always to my loves family and friends, may everyone dreams come true and prosperity happy . The second wishes is I want to get a new car by myself end of this year. The model haven decided yet. But I hope I'm capable to make my dream come true. At least I'm willing to try. Hmmmm how about the third. Of course I not speak it out here . Hahahahaha secret ...


Sometimes I felt myself kinda lost . I really wish someone could just easily hold my hand and bring me to the place where I should stand on. I wish to fast forward the time to see what I've really done .

Life is short . Please wake up and start observed to the ones you love so much. I just being too touched and happy when I received all the lovely gift they prepared for me . My elder sister went to hong kong a few months before my birthday. I never thought of she already bought a gold key chain for me at Hong kong. It just so sweet that someone prepared all the thing for you first. And I got a red pocket from my dad too. He's funny . He put at one of my LV bag, and goshhhh girl always change their bag right? Before five day of my birthday date, he put the red pocket, I wasn't know anything about that. then he felt weird why am I didn't felt any surprises or anything.
Then he asked me one the day before my birthday. He asked :" daddy's present you like it ornt ?" I was stunned and say :"huh, what present? Did you give me any present yet?"

Then he walk quickly to my room and took one of my Lv bag and he open it and say Why you didn't bring this bag out that day? I was like hmmmm sorry dad sorry dad . Lol . Daddy and mummy also bought me a new coach bag. Love it so much. Thanks !!!

Especially my friends , I received so many of the wishes . And some of them really sincere enough to make a handmade card for me. Is just so sweet. Nowadays everything seems to being enhance . I almost forgotten how happy and excited to do everything with my own hand like makin mothers day card , birthday card and ..... But now, we can just simply click at the we'd site and search printable card . Then you edit the name and type the wishes then click SEND. Is totally different era .

Of course I love my sista Ji mui . As what we named our group . Guci babes.

Here are some of the photos , will be updated more !!!

Sunday, January 22, 2012

JOGOYA DAY . 30.12.2011

今天晚上,约了整家人一起去JOGOYA吃晚餐哦
好久没有好好的和家人吃一顿好吃的大餐




我和我dedajie




我最爱的Salmon


漂亮的妈妈


顽皮的弟弟

小辣椒妹妹


伟大的爸爸

我自己编织的照片


吃完后,就去pavilion走走














我最爱的hello kitty





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